Tomorrow Starts the Process

Ok, so I am sitting at my house on a Saturday night by myself. I am thankful for the time. You see tomorrow is the official start to the in vitro process for me and Tony. Tomorrow is called baseline day! It has a title, weird to me, but there is a title. Baseline day is an ultrasound and some blood work- I believe. They are getting a picture of where I am on the internal clock. Tomorrow is also when all the money is due (thank you Lord that Tony had a closing today).

Up until this point, I have been fairly calm and collected. I have done what the doctors have said. I started taking certain medications back at the end of June, I have taken them religiously. I have cut back on working out and I get plenty of sleep (I am in bed between 9-9:30 on work nights). But tomorrow starts the clock. This is really happening. I am not nervous because Tony has enough nervousness for the both of us. I just needed a night to myself to collect my thoughts, pray, and just be me for a while. Tony is at a Poker night up the street and I am thankful to just have this time alone.

I really don't know what to think or how to feel. I think my dogs know something is up because my youngest dog (Toby) has been all about sleeping on my stomach or right by my head these past two weeks. I wonder if he can smell the hormones? Or, I wonder if it is because my house looks like a small pharmacy right now, they are wondering what the heck is going on. I am sure when I have to start giving myself injections twice a day, I might question why the heck I am doing this. However, every morning I wake up, look at Tony, and I know why I am doing this. He is a great husband, will be a wonderful father, and I am so thankful that I get a chance to start a family with him.

I usually don't ask for prayer (just ask my Sunday School class), however, if you are out there and could send some words up to the good Lord above, I could really use them. I know God has a plan for us, and I hope I can live strong in my faith through this entire process.